Sunday 27, july 2008.

I sit here,
trying to think,
trying to make up an
Excuse,
But my mind is blank,
As it has been for the past
Week.
Sunday 27, july 2008.
I have been empty
Like a song with no words,
Like food with no taste
Like a leaf with a withering branch.
the pain tears through me,
ripping away my heart,,
Burning up my soul,
And yet i have to live,
But how do i?
He raised me, bore me,
Loved me endlessly,
The one person i thought
Would watch me graduate,
Walk me down the isle,
when i got married,
Laugh and be silly,
with my first born,
But all that is now nothing.
He is gone,
Taken away from me,
When i watched him,
His body in a coffin,
being lowered to the ground.
My soul was buried with him.
How do i move on, how do i find my own way,
Somebody please tell me,
Let me rant and rave,
Do not tell me to be strong,
that God knows why,
But if God knows why,
Why didn't he tell me,
Why did he have to let him
Suffer and die like he didn't care,
I want him back,
I want my father back!!!